Friday, April 21, 2006
THURSDAE190406_yesterdae,i didnt get to talk to esther for the whole dae.just like that lohhs..haiiss...yesterdae,after sch,i was like...esther goin one direction(to the right),xiner goin e direction to the left...i dunno which wae to go..supposedly i chose that path esther take...cuz this two path can brin me to busstop mahhs hahas..but den i talk n talk n talk...den i realise,esther go liao...didnt noe i talk so much ehhx.hahas..went to tm yesterdae...scolded that fCukin bitch madaline...i scold her half wae,outside the fourth floor toilet.e life there..den sae sly n belle..hahas...sly wear until so gal gal lahh...hahas..ehhx...den nth much lo..go home,reply leta...do accounts...wha...sad lahhs...i cry for xiner lahhs...or ixit esther?aiya...no lahh..no one..i just cry lo...im veri sad thats why...FRIDAE200406_todae,went to sch...chat with xiner..wahahas...so happi..den,pe time xiner pass by me...like got smile,like nvr..i also dunno...den,lit time.. ESTHER pass by my class..she pass by twice.the second time she wave n smile at me..i was like...meltin..hahas...den i fall of the chair lahh...luckily ms kang dunno...i took back my progress card den is like..all is red mark lahh..was veri discouraged..but,nvr cry=]..i pass 6 fail 12 of it...flank it totally=[..durin chinese went to av theatre...den we all so noisy there...in front or=f me is gera wu,zhenxiu n deborah sittin.den next to me in katherine n hafi...behind is kuku wendy...dey all were like..keep insultin xiner lahh..veri bad lo..i feel so sad when dey ask me why i like her etc...oh ya,xiner wrote me a leta,what is the meanin of it?i onli want to noe..the meanin to the last sentence..haiiss..den gera dey all keep saein her etc..i was like shoutin to the whole class in av,"who dun like xiner stand up"wha..stupid...gera,debrorah,zhenxiu,jiawei,even felicia from another stood up...cant stop laughin lo..hahas...dey sae my taste bad,where got?i like can le mahhs...its fun in there/..haiiss.after school,i took all my books home...esther ANGRY with me again lahhs..what the fcuk..bcuz of a cute gal,rachel lee.hmm...den,i she bu de go home..wait for cab with wendy n kat..but den dun have..so i ask wendy to go back sch with me..went in,jazmin sae she lost her wallet..oh no..supposed to tio a gal de..but,nvr liao...i went in sch..saw XINER at class 2/7 dere.i stood at 3/4 there lo.hahas...deborah keep saein"she starin at u"so paisehx lah..but if she ever stare at me,my head will roll le lohhs...she just..walk pass me like that den.haiiss..sad..after sch,she opposite..i cross to hire cab..i got ABANDICS pain lahh..so just cab home..cab home liao den meet pig..she pass me cigarette.hahas..so bored...i listen to the song yue ding,i cry lo..because of her.this song is suppose to be our song lahh...haiiss.. ive been cryin for u everynite,
its onli that u dunno.
u thought ive forgotten u,.
but its not true.
ure stil the one i want badly..
how much time muz i need,
to give up on u?
where is the promise u make,
u sae nvr to leave me.
u sae to love me forever...
till now,i dunno what is the reason
u sae break to me..
i wants to noe...
i dun ask for anythin but onli for u
to tell me the reason why,im satisfied.
its been so long since we broke up,
but still,i cant get u off my mind.
i nvr dare to drink 'greentea'..
cuz u owax buy it for me..
now that ure gone,
who will share the sweetness with me?
i noe u no longer likes me,
i am just havin false hope for myself.
have u ever love me before?
have u ever cried for me?
this is all i wan to noe.
where is the commitment ure
suppose to do?u nvr fufil it.
n yet,u left me so sudden..
i miss u..
i stil long to col u sweetheart for the last time.
i stil wants to run to u n give u a hug.=[
im longin..im waitin..
but everythin is just a dream=[
u noe ure in love
when the hardest thing
to sae is GOODBYE.
i once love u,
n now i stil do.
1826pm
imizyew.
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